I always remember driving by a gas station in town and seeing moms and dads exchange their kids. It must have been “the meeting place” for separated parents. I remember thinking “I don’t ever want my kids to have to go through that”, well little did I know that a few years later I’d be doing the same thing. Have you ever heard the saying “When we make plans, God laughs?” Well, he must have been cracking up with me.
I was 3 months pregnant before we got married and not too late after that I was pregnant with another baby. I was miserable. I thought because I was pregnant, I had to get married. We were married for 4 years before I realized the manipulation, cheating and the abuse wasn’t normal in marriage. When I decided to leave, I found out I was pregnant with my 3rd daughter. The fear of being a single mom with no money and having another baby set in. I struggled with the thought of abortion and I truly believed that I couldn’t make it if I kept that baby. God reminded me otherwise and showed me His faithfulness.
When my youngest daughter was 3 months old, I met my current husband while I was having dinner at a restaurant with a girlfriend. I always told myself “no man in his right mind will date a women with 3 kids! Let alone one of them being a newborn!” (Again God laughed) Fast forward 5 years and today I am so thankful to say that I am happily married to that man from the restaurant now for 4 years and we had had another baby together. We just got full custody of my older 3 girls and soon my husband will be adopting them as his own.
Remember, God will always use a situation for His glory. I’ve learned to never doubt how great our God is. You do not have to carry the shame of your past anymore. You are cleaned from that and ALL THINGS are made new.